Change

Change. Why can it be so hard to change at times? I’ve been thinking a lot about change lately and just wanted to put my thoughts into writing.

Change
Wonderful Sofia, Bulgaria

I usually spend a lot of time writing, editing and finding ways to make it all sound a little smoother and this time around I figured to just write. Without any major edits.

Change is hard

Change of any sort was something that I used to dread until I didn’t. My parents got divorced at age 7 and I moved from a small village with a little over 100 people to a city with almost 2 million people.

It was a huge life change for me is an understatement. It was painful and I am forever grateful that things happened the way they did.

For the first time in my life, little 7-year-old me realized that change, all things considered, isn’t so bad after all. As the years passed by I really learned to appreciate this particular change in my life – big thanks to my parents.

Do not resist it

I’ve since moved a ton, not so much as a kid, but a lot as an adult. I spent three months in Berlin, I lived in London and spent almost two years in New York City, on two separate occasions.

Change has slowly but surely become something that I look forward to. That being said, I still dread change every single time.

A change in life situation usually triggers doubt, fear and everything in between.

Moving from one city to the next? – Doubts arise.

Moving from one country to the other? – Are you sure about this?

Quitting work to switch jobs or quitting jobs to travel. – Is this really what you want to do?

A peak into my brain

Every single time I am making major changes in my life, my mind starts getting louder and louder.

I get a lot of comments on my YouTube channel along the lines of:

  • “I’d love to move, but I am afraid!”
  • “I’d love to live in another country, but what if things don’t work out”
  • “I love how easy and stressfree your life is!”

Hold on a moment.

Change is not something that comes naturally to me.

It took me years of work to be somewhat comfortable with change and uncertainty.

  • I feel OK not knowing exactly what’s ahead.
  • I feel OK jumping into things.
  • I feel OK not having everything figured out.

That being said, I need to go into any life change somewhat prepared.

  • Do I have enough savings? Check.
  • Do I have a proper plan? Check.
  • Have I put my dreams and desires into writing? Check.

Nothing in life is permanent

Change is something that needs to be embraced.

I try not to value it in any way instead, I take it for what it is and tackle everything head on.

Yes, change can be incredibly scary, terrifying and just plain overwhelming and yet I continuously push myself to embrace it.

Why?

Because I crave it.

If it wasn’t for embracing change, I would’ve never left the country that I was born and raised in. I wouldn’t have had an absolute blast living in London.

If it wasn’t for embracing change I wouldn’t be where I am today.

Continuously pushing myself has shaped me into who I am today and I wouldn’t want to have it any other way.

That little voice inside my head still gets louder and louder every time I do something that scares me.

Every time doubt and fear arise I look it dead in the eye and remind myself to “feel the feer and do it anyway” (it’s a great book!).

Today, change is something that I look forward to, and although fear and worries may creep in, I welcome it with open arms.

Changes I am currently facing: Finishing up my trip around the world, moving, finding a new place to live, looking for work and processing a bunch of paperwork.

What changes are you currently facing?

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