I am currently sick at home, trying to get better, and resting as much as I can. It’s nothing serious, just to make that clear, and I figured it’s time for a little life update. I also had to check real quick: When was the last time I posted a video on YouTube? At the beginning of May.
This is not going to be a long post, I’ll try to keep it simple. What has happened since May? What’s going on in my life? Short answer: A lot. I’ll try to keep it simple by sticking to the most important things. Life update – here ya go!
This is what happened since May 2019:
- I had an unexpected fall out with someone who was fairly close to me.
- I moved to Berlin in February 2019 and moved again in June.
- Turns out techno music makes be absolutely ecstatic. I fell in love with hard techno and can’t seem to get enough of it.
- I’ve got a little tribe of people here that I really really enjoy spending time with.
- Boundaries are important and I now feel comfortable and confident setting them, no matter who the parties involved are.
- Learning to openly express my desires has been liberating.
- Opening up to people and sharing my feelings has been one of the most nerve-wracking and valuable experiences.
- I signed up to an Ashtanga Yoga Studio and rediscovered my love for it. In less than two weeks of practicing 2 hours a day I learned more than in years doing it at home.
- 4:30 AM, provided that I am not sick, duh, is my new wake up time.
- I decided to explore going gluten-free. October will be my gluten-free month.
- I opened up about something that I felt very strongly with every fiber of my being. 100% worth it.
- My new “drug” of choice? This stuff. A friend in London introduced me to it and nothing has ever given me so much focus. I only ever drink it before (and sometimes after) going clubbing.
Berlin is giving me life
I can’t quite put it into words. It’s just that I’ve grown so much more confident, stronger (physically and mentally) and comfortable with myself, my desires, wants, needs and so on ever since moving here.
For the longest time, I really really enjoyed filming and editing YouTube videos. Shortly after moving to Berlin I realized, that I needed to focus more on myself, my relationships and my life here. My life in the present moment.
Researching interesting content, filming videos, seeing myself while editing over and over again and needing to flag comments of harassment started to take away from my experience of life in the present.
Everything that I do in life, I aim to give 100% of my attention, time and energy. That goes for all areas of life. I wanted to be more present, I wanted to give Berlin my all and in order to do so, I had to set my priorities straight, which is why I stopped filming.
Will I get back to filming YouTube videos?
I honestly don’t know. There’s a chance that I might and there’s a chance that I won’t. I am still doing my shopping ban, I recently attended another 10-day
Of course, there’s a whole lot more that happened. Dark stuff, painful stuff, really personal stuff, and stuff that may have made other people (myself included) a tad bit uncomfortable. Of course, sharing some of these experiences may be helpful to others however, I refrain from sharing overly personal stuff, because I highly value my privacy.
That was it for my life update. The bottom line is that, although it hasn’t been and isn’t always easy, I absolutely love my life here in Berlin.
So happy to hear your words again and that you are happy in Berlin! ( I have yet to visit but so want to!). I have really missed your posts but congrats to you for doing what u need to do in life. I have had lots of the same feelings as you but still struggling to speak my words of truth. If you do feel the need to share again, I would personally love it..You are very wise, strong and I have learned a lot from you..All my best for a healthy life filled with love and fun..Hope u feel better soon too…
Deb (NJ, USA)
ps. Was going to meet you once when u lived in NYC but I think it was a holiday or something..maybe we will meet up one day in Berlin..
Deborah, I am so happy to hear from you! I may get around to it more now that it’s getting colder. Right now it wouldn’t feel right now. I’ll have to see how I feel about it in the months to come. Thank you so much for your kind words! 🙂 Berlin is a really awesome city and I am sure you’d enjoy it here! 🙂
Great to hear you are happy in Berlin. Feel better soon. All the best xx
Thank you for the love! 🙂
What a pleasant surprise! Yesterday my husband mentioned a coworker who just came back from Berlin and that made me think of you. It sounds like you are in tune and on your path, thank you for sharing an update. Your videos and post are always uplifting and interesting for me. I’d love to visit Berlin. Hope you feel much better soon, I look forward to seeing any future videos and updates.
I hope your husband’s coworker had a lovely trip! Berlin is a truly amazing place and I can only highly recommend it although of course, I am a little bit biased! 🙂 Thank you so much! 🙂
You are such an inspiration on minimalism and frugality, I miss your videos so much! But just do what feels right for you. Take care of yourself.
Thank you so much for your sweet comment! 🙂
Hi Nina, I can’t believe you are into mate! I’m from Argentina, and it’s like religion here, as is in Uruguay and Paraguay.
Hope you’re doing well, and thanks for the update.
I love it sooooo much! A friend who’s living in London and visited Argentina actually introduced me to it! 🙂 He bought 1kg of it there and poured me a cup – I fell in love with it then and there! 🙂
I hope to make it to Argentina one of these days so I can see it for myself!! 🙂
Much love from Berlin,
So happy to see you are still alive and kicking 😊 I have been missing you.
Glad you are enjoying Berlin so much. So wish I could go there some Day. Living your truth, I admire that. It’s not always easy. You are so far ahead of me in so many ways. I learn a lot from you.
I liked reading about your meditation retreat. I would be so hungry with only two meals per day. 😆 But still, it sounds like something I want to try.
Hearing from you made me happy.
Get well soon ❤️
Hi Linda!! :)))
I am really really enjoying it here! Definitely hit me up if you plan on visiting, I’d be happy to host you! 🙂
Trust me, I thought I’d be too and then I was sitting there, not hungry at all. It took me by surprise!
Thank you so much! Aside from coughing I am alright now and so much better than a week ago! 🙂
Much love from Berlin! 🙂
What’s up Ninja! 🙂 Hope you’re doing well again…overall! You seem to have gone through a lot in the past few month…sometimes we have to conquer certain things that can make our life very uncomfortable or unpleasant but every time we figured a way out of those dilemmas we can be so proud of ourselves. Miss your YouTube content and hope to see more stuff from you in the near future. I always feel so grounded and centered after watching your videos! And yes, you’re so right about the here and now… this is the most important thing in life. All the best. – Dominic PS: There was a lot going on in my life the last few month too but I haven’t forgot about our little meet&greet in Berlin… hope we can work something out very soon! 🙂 Until then!
Hi Dominic!! :)))) Yes! There’s been tons going on, still kinda is, but things are slowly but surely falling into place and all is good! I might film again in the oh so distant future, I am really not sure about it at this point. Awwwe, I am so happy to hear that my videos make you feel grounded! Sure thing! I’ll be right here in Berlin and apart from the occasional trip I won’t be going anywhere! :))
I was wondering about you Nina and I just found your last posting from 2019. I had the feeling that something ugly really happened to you. I’m glad to hear you are well under the circumstances. Take care!
Hey! Oh, nothing ugly happened! I just enjoy spending less time online and have dived deeper into ashtanga yoga and other areas of my life. Thank you! Likewise!
Glad to know that you are well Nina 😉
:))) Much love from Berlin!